Yesterday I celebrated my 25th birthday. Let me tell you how...
Passing Kidney Stones!! Yay! What a great way to spend your birthday. But enough of that...
As I have approached 25, I have been really contemplating my life, what kind of mom I am, what kind of wife I am, and what kind of person I am.
Lately, I have not been that impressed. Since I started working full time everything has kind of gone down the crapper. I get off work and don't feel like doing a damn thing. The laundry doesn't get done, and my house is a filthy pig sty! I have let Lexi sleep on the couch about every night this summer because I am to lazy to go tuck her in. And I have been slacking on Quinn's therapy that I am supposed to do with her every day.
I keep thinking..."Something's got to give." And it has. Last week I gave my notice at work. While expecting our 3rd child, I look at the mess that I am in right now, and get really scared when I think of a new baby in this mess. Plus, how does a mother of 3 work 40 hours a week?
So...yesterday as I was "Celebrating" my 25th. I decided to give myself a make over. I am going to make over the mom and wife I am and try to be better. I am not in my early twenties anymore and can't get away with being flaky. So...now I am going to stay home and not work. Lucky me to get to stay home with such cute kids! I have to sacrifice some stuff. Like my brand new 2011 Jetta that I absolutely love. Because we won't be able to afford it now. But I would drive a 1982 New Yorker if it means I get to stay home with my kids.
Maybe that is the newer, older, wiser version of myself. But I have just gotten to the point that it doesn't matter what I drive, and it doesn't matter what I wear or what toys we have. All that matters is that my family is taken care of. And that I am not on the sidelines like I have felt like for the past 8 months. And is feeling like you are on the sidelines in your own kids lives worth driving a nice car and making good money? I think not.
I tried working full time. I like the job. But I can't say that it is for me. I can't wait to spend my days home with my wonderful kids and hopefully improve myself.
I love your post!! Its crazy how our view of who we are and what we want to become changes. I've been doing this same make-over for the last little bit.. no i'm not perfect and no the changes are not yet complete but i'm still working at me!! Good for you terra!!!! love your cute little family
ReplyDeleteGood for you! That is so great! I had to make a few changes in my work schedule also so that I can spend more time with my kiddos. They grow up way to fast to miss it!
ReplyDeleteWow, what a birthday! Terra, you are an amazing mom, wife and person in general. Your insight is wonderful, and hard all at the same time. I think we could all use a little mom-makeover like you talked about. I know I sure could!
ReplyDeleteAnd THAT is someone that is one year older and WISER too.
ReplyDeleteI'm telling you, STUFF is most definitely not worth it. I'm excited that you are going to sacrifice those things that are so unimportant. It's worth it.
Plus, now we can have play dates! I really miss seeing you. We need a midnight movie.
And sorry about the kidney stones!
ReplyDeleteHappy belated birthday, Terra! I'm glad you found our blog. I can relate to your feelings about working. Not long ago I quit a great job, and I LOVE it! I'm sure you're a great mama and your two (and soon to be three) kids are so lucky to have you! Keep in touch -k-?!
ReplyDeleteWay to go Terra. I'm sure it was a tough decision, but what a great one you made. Enjoy being at home, and yes, good thing you've got such cuties to keep you company. :)
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